Finding My Way: The Best Laid Plans..

I've been doing some soul-searching lately, trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life, however long that may be..

I've made decision upon decision, only to have to change my mind and find an alternate route due to something random happening, like a sign from God telling me that I'm not meant to do that. I know He's always guiding me on the path I should take, I've just been trying these different paths and it doesn't seem like I'm meant to go down any of them. Or maybe, I'm trying to go 100mph when really, He only wants me to go 40mph.. hehe.

I just have to continue to be patient. The longer you stay out of school, the harder it is to go back. I definitely know what they mean when they say that. Whoever 'they' are. I graduated 4 years ago, and most programs that I'm thinking about entering have a time limit on how long ago you can have taken the prerequisites needed to apply. As time goes on, more and more of my past courses are no longer usable and I need to retake them again. I mean, it's all good, it's just crazy to realize how fast time has flown by. I will be 26 next month, and depending on what I decide to do with the rest of life, I could be in school past age 30! I don't think I want that... But I do want to go back to school for SOMETHING.. I probably need to talk to a career couselor to get a real sense of what career I can find fulfilling and easily transition to without being in school for like 4 more years...

I was going to start taking evening classes back in NJ, then suddenly the man of my dreams swoops in out of nowhere and next thing I know, I'm saving up and planning for a wedding HAHAHA. It's all HIS fault - JK!!!! But now I'm in California, happily married housewife, and I have to wait until Fall 2009 to start class b/c otherwise, it costs 10x as much b/c I wouldn't be a resident yet. Due to economic crisis, there is no way I'm gonna be paying 1000 for a 100 buck class HAHAHA. Well, economic crisis or not, that's just silly!

Now that I'm about to sign up for classes here in Cali, there ends up being a good possibility that my husband's job will allow him to do a rotation in North Carolina in the fall, for 2 months. Exciting! And I have the option to stay home and have him fly to visit me every 3 weeks, or I can go with him. Of course I'm gonna go with him HAHAHAHA. But where does that leave my schooling? Hmmm... but I guess the reason I haven't been able to register for classes yet is because we may be going to NC. My registration date isn't until June 1st, and while I've been waiting impatiently to register, maybe I am not supposed to anyway....

I don't mind being a nomad, traveling the world, experiencing living in different places. It's awesome. I just wonder what God's plan is for me, ultimately. I know in time, I will find my way. It's different when there's two of you to plan for. Because you have to make sure your individual plans run together seamlessly as opposed to clashing with each other. I do not regret anything that has happened in my life to bring me to this point. I've made some bad calls, but in the end, you learn from them and with God's help, everything works out.

I am thankful b/c I have everything I need. I am content. I just would like to do a bit more than laundry and dishes HAHAHAHAHA..